Well, it's that time of year again. Ok so we started September 1st last year and this year we didn't start until October 1st. It's probably better that way! LOL! GAG is back! And better than ever. Why? Because I think I talked like six people into joining LOL! So there are way too many people that know what I am doing so I have to live up to it right? No slacking. No daydreaming. No quitting! Shoot. I won last year. I would like to make it two for two. =D Who is ready??
Goals for the 2010 GAG challenge:
Lose 30 lbs.
Journal journal journal!!
Drink 64 ozs of water daily
Eat more fruits and vegetables.
Exercise 150 mins a week (this equates to 30 mins 5 days a week).
I think these are basic doable activities. Why can't I do these? This is what I have been struggling with. I need to get into a routine. I need to get back to basics. I can do this.
Today's weigh in was so NOT pretty. :( That ticker at the top. Yep, it's been updated. Yup, I'm almost in the 180s. Yup, I'm disgusted with myself. Yes, I want to make a change. Something has to change. But I'm just not sure I can do it.
I need to start eating right. But eating bad is so good! But it doesn't make me feel good. :( It makes me feel fat and ugly and is just not good for me. But why does the bad food have to taste so good! And you know what, it's not just that it tastes good. Right now, it's all about convenience! I hate to say it but I'm getting tired of coming home at 5:30 when dh has been home for an hour and nothing has been done. And the first thing out of his mouth is what's for dinner. Ugh. I think I need to get him to start meal planning and cooking. He said he would cook if I had a meal plan but I don't know what he'll cook. If I plan something that he doesn't know he won't cook it. Ugh.
Exercise. Enough said. I have no idea when to fit it in. I get up at 4:30am and I don't get to rest until 9pm. There is not time between those hours that I can fit it in. So I either don't get to sit down and rest or what??? I would like to watch tv at some point in time. I would like to start running again too but at 9pm at night? Or 4am. I think I'll have to wake up at 4am. But I don't think it would be wise to go running outside at that hour. So that means I have to do videos. Ugh. I'm just not a video exercise person. I guess I'm going to have to start to be.
Out of control. I just feel like my life is out of control right now. With Connor starting Kindergarten and not doing very well at drop off, I'm at a loss and I can't control it. I can control my eating which is causing me to over eat. Don't ask me how that works. You'd think I'd want to control it and be limiting on my intake but I'm the opposite. Ugh. I need my world to stop spinning out of control and I don't see that happening anytime soon. Can I have the world stop so I can step off and take a break??
So those are just a few of the things I'm dealing with right now. I've got to stop it and fast. I'm disgusted with myself. I look like a big fat blob. My clothes don't fit. I'm wearing the same outfits every week because they are the only clothes that fit me. I had to buy XXL t-shirts yesterday at Target (granted they are tight fitting shirts that I wanted to be lose so maybe at the beginning of this year I would have bought a L instead but still!). Ugh. Baby steps. One day a time. I will get back to that healthy Heather that I once knew and loved.
Friendship for Grown Ups by Lisa Whelchel was actually pretty interesting. Especially if you grew up watching Facts of Life and know who Lisa Whelchel was. This book actually made me rethink how I approach my friendships. It made me re-evaluate how I am as a friend and how I can be a better friend. This book did include a lot of her past friendships and how they worked and/or didn't work. I would have liked to see this book a little more informational than biographical. But overall, it really made me think about my friendships and how I could be a better friend.
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I am such a slacker. SLACKER. Big fat (and I do mean FAT) slacker. Ugh. Life was hectic this past summer. With three kids, all three of them doing swimming one right after the other, then Connor also in t-ball, throw some camping in there and mix it all up and we have one busy busy summer. Not that it has slowed down now that it is the fall. Connor started Kindergarten and that has been stressful to say the least. He was fine the first couple days, then not so much. Now he is ok. I'm hoping next week will be even better. Keep your fingers crossed.
But all of that to say, I need to get back on the bandwagon. I have gained weight. Lots of weight. 20 lbs since Jan. 1st to be exact. Ugh. My clothes don't fit. I don't like how I look. This is NOT good. I was supposed to be close to my goal of 130. I should be within reach (if not there already). Instead, I have to get off my lazy ass and get my butt moving. I need to start eating healthier. I need to start cooking and not taking the easy way out and going to fast food and picking it up. I can do this. I will do this. Just bear with me. LOL!