Monday, December 19, 2011

It's time

It's time to resurrect this blog. Expect me to be back and fighting and kicking come 1-1-12. :)

Tuesday, August 02, 2011

Steps from 8/1


Monday, August 01, 2011

Monday WI

Well, Mandie from Fighting the Fat pushed me last week to get going and I did!! Thank you Mandie!! We have been texting each other and keeping each other accountable. And her enthusiam and never quit attitude is really helping me out!! And guess what? It showed:

WI: 186.0

That's a 4.2 lb loss!!!! And I wasn't horrible. Granted we stopped eating out last week! Yeah! So that shows too. But I was 100% spot on with my food for the last 4 days. Yippee!!! I am going to keep going. No stopping me now!! And this will definitely help me since we are going to Oktoberfest in October in Big Bear and I wanted to be 20 lbs down. Yeah!!!

Now to get more exercise in. . . one step at time though right! ;)

Sunday, July 31, 2011

Steps for 7/30

Saturday, July 30, 2011

Steps for 7/30/11

Monday, July 25, 2011

Going back to Monday WI's

I just can't get my mind wrapped around anything other than a Monday WI. I know - it's strange - but that's just what I'm used to. So WI today . . .


Great. In the 190s again. :( I realized this weekend how out of shape I am. My son started riding his bike with no training wheels. I was trying to keep up. As in run/jog, yeah. right. And this is from the same person that has done 4 5ks I believe. Ugh. Need to get back into it. So I told him, any night he wants to ride his bike - I will run with him. He was so excited. He said - "we'll exercise together!". Yup. Exercise. Need. to. do. that.

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

Wednesday WI

Drum Roll - 188.8

Well I have the 180's mastered. :sigh:  That (if you are keeping track) is a 1.6 lb GAIN from two weeks ago since I forgot didn't weigh in last week. I have been bouncing all around the 180s all year long. I am tired of it. I want to get out of the 180s. I need to stop with the excuses. If like is crazy and busy it doesn't give me the right to eat whatever I want. If I'm having a bad day, I need to suck it up and do something to make it better. Food is not going to make it better! Well, hopefully I can keep those thoughts in my mind. :sigh: Easier said than done.

Monday, July 18, 2011

New Week

And a new outlook. I'm tired of being unhealthy and tired. :) I went grocery shopping yesterday and spend $300! Yikes. That's what happens when you don't shop for almost a month. YIKES!! But now I had a healthy breakfast and no excuse. I'm tired of all my clothes being frumpy and not fitting correctly. I'm tired of wearing jeans all the time because I don't want to wear shorts (well ok I don't have shorts that FIT me to wear). It all changes. NOW. This day. I'm going to take it one event at a time. One week, one day, one meal, one temptation, one second at a time. I can do this. . . . (And I will really weigh in on Wednesday this week - I promise!!! =) )

Friday, July 15, 2011

Working on it

I'm working on revamping my thinking and my mind. I started a list of things I need to do in order to get healthy. It's almost not about losing weight anymore (although yes, I want need to do that). It's about getting healthy. Eating donuts for breakfast and stuffing my face is not going to make me healthy. It's going to make this pain in my calf not go away. It's going to make these spider veins grow and multiply. It's going to make this pooch of a belly grow. I don't want that. It's going to make it impossible to play with my children. I'll be too tired to want to play. I'll get worn out fast. I don't want that. I don't want any of that. So it's back to the drawing board and I will get through this. This is just a bump in the road. I will get over it and I will surpass it. :)

Book Review - Surrogate

Surrogate by F. Rober Lea was a very entertaining book! I have to say I really liked this book. The title caught my eye because my hubby and I had trouble getting pregnant (although we didn't have to go too far with getting help) so I thought this would be an interesting book. Well, it was to say the least!! There are two couples that are both having trouble having babies and the way they come up with to solve their problem is . . . well different! I don't want to ruin it for you! I really loved this story. There were places that the author could have expended on the story (it felt rushed in a few places) but the overall plot and storyline I thought were great. And it's a short read and very fast. I read it in a day. Very cute, entertaining book!

I'm linking this post to Heather's Book Club Friday.

Disclosure of Material Connection: I received this book free from the author. I was not required to write a positive review. The opinions I have expressed are my own. I am disclosing this in accordance with the Federal Trade Commission’s 16 CFR, Part 255: “Guides Concerning the Use of Endorsements and Testimonials in Advertising.”

Wednesday, July 13, 2011

10 Week Summer Challenge - Week Three

Ah well, Oops! I forgot to WI today. Although it's probably a good thing as I have been HORRIBLE lately. Ugh. Why can't I just get this through my thick skull???? On the up side - I have cooked at home the last three nights in a row. And the last two nights, the kids all said, "Mommy you make the best food."  Ah. Yeah. I need to keep doing that. I will continue tonight as dh is going out with a friend so it's me and the kids. So it's Mac and Cheese night. :) I think I'll heat up a spicy sausage to go with mine. Yum. But I really REALLY need to go grocery shopping. I am BARE. My refrigerator is empty. I'm on my last inkling of milk. I have no eggs. I have no OJ. I had to throw out all my corn tortillas yesterday as there was mold on them (must have been too moist on the refrigerator. ugh). But I have no desire to go grocery shopping. :sigh: I will buck up. Especially since we are going camping next weekend so of course I have to get food. Now the question is - what are we going to eat. . .

Wednesday, June 29, 2011

Week One Results

Journal: 5/7

Exercise: 411/3500

Weight Loss: 0 lbs
Not a stellar week that's for sure. But I will do better this week!!

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

Week One

Journal: 5/7
Exercise: 411/3500

Friday, June 24, 2011

Another Day

Journal: 2/70
Exercise: 0/3500

Well I'm doing the journaling. :) Not doing the exercise. Baby steps right? I've also started eating breakfast at home. I have 30 mins between the time my hubby leaves and when I have to get the kids up now because I can't drop Connor off until 7:30. So I am going to start making eggs or something else with protein in the morning. It helped so much! When I got into work this morning I was full and didn't even feel the need to stop at the snackbar. Yeah!!!

Thursday, June 23, 2011

Day One

Still no picture. Sorry!!! I need to do that tonight. Things were crazy last night. But I wanted to come in and report:

Journaling: 1/70
Exercise: 0/3500

Tuesday, June 21, 2011

10 Week Summer Challenge - THE BEGINNING

And so it begins TODAY! Woo Hoo!! I so need this. I need something to change my mindset. I am tired of being fat and gross - especially during the summer! I have lots of oppurtunities for exercise and eating right and I am going to TAKE it! If anyone wants to be an accountability partner, the more the merrier! Just hit me up!!
I will be changing my WIs to Wednesday to accomdate this challenge so look for my beginning weight tomorrow. =) I wll also have dh take a before shot of me. I would really like to make the next 10 weeks count. What can it hurt? NOTHING. Like Christine said - I can do anything for 10 weeks. It's "only" 10 weeks. I can do this!

What do I want to get out of these 10 weeks?

Define your Ultimate Goal: Journal 60/70 days. Lose 20 lbs

How many calories do YOU need to maintain your current weight? 1900

Define your exercise goals: Burn 3500 calories per week (not gonna do day because some days are harder then others!!)

Define your food/intake goals: 1400 per day.

I will be logging my food and exercise at If you are a member, I'm pinguinlvr. Friend me. =) I will post my pics tonight. I'm also going to limit my soda to ONCE per day. I know. That's hard for me. That is my caffeine. That is my addiction. I need to cut it out. I'm not sure that crystal light is any better (except no carbonation) but I'm going to try and drink more water but when I just need flavor - I'll use crystal light. Other than that, I just want to get into the exercising habit. Even if it's just a DVD in my bedroom. Or doing some lunges outside. Or just stretching. I don't want to be a couch potato. :( I want to get back into running and running some 5Ks. I can do this. Who is with me??

Friday, June 03, 2011


Why can't I get my eating in check. It's not like it's that great of food either. :sigh:

Got to the gym today and finished Week One of the c25k plan. I LOVE the new app i found for my iPhone for the c25k program. It's so cool to use my own songs that I like. I did not go to the gym yesterday. Since i had to drive in, I figured the extra hour of sleep would be helpful for me NOT to fall asleep at the wheel! And I was right. I wasn't as tired as I was the day before. I know it will get better also as I get use to the new routine.

Journaling is eh. I did horrible yesterday and didn't journal at all. I'll journal today. My eating is still out of control and I feel gross but I will get back in control.

Wednesday, June 01, 2011

10 Week Calorie Counting Challenge

I saw one of my favorite weight loss peeps (Christine) is having a challenge starting June 21st. It's a calorie counting (aka journaling) challenge. YES! Right up my alley and exactly what I need to work on!! So I'm in! Would you like to join?? Please do! The more that hold me accountable - the merrier! =D

It's going to run from June 21st - August 30th. 10 Weeks.

What do I want to get out of these 10 weeks?
  1. Define your Ultimate Goal: Journal 60/70 days. Lose 20 lbs 
  2. How many calories do YOU need to maintain your current weight? 1900
  3. Define your exercise goals: Burn 500 calories per day 
  4. Define your food/intake goals: 1400
So there you have it. =D If you'd like to join - go to THIS post and sign up!! We CAN do this!!

Tuesday, May 31, 2011

Time to begin . . . And FINISH

I am freakin' serious this time. I weighed in this morning . . . it was NOT pretty.


I am BACK in the 190's. WTF?!? How did I let this happen?? I was in the 150's. I wasn't nearing the 140's yet but I was in the 150's. I have gained 30 lbs!! Now, that didn't happen overnight. And it's not going to fix itself overnight but I AM going to fix this.

I went back to the gym this morning. Step One. Started back on the C25K. I want to get back into running. I want to run 5ks. I want to run a 1/2 marathon. Eventually I would LOVE to do a triathlon. That is my ultimate goal. But continuing on as I am, is not gonna get there.

I started journaling again in I will check in there EVERY SINGLE DAY. I don't want to see a break. I want to see the automated posts that say Heather has checked in for x number of days. I want that number to go up into the triple digits. I want it to count the days that I have stuck to my plan. And I will stick to my plan!

I am tired of being in this rut. I am tired of my clothes not fitting. I am tired. And I am DONE being tired. It's time to get off my ass and get moving and start eating healthier!!

Friday, May 27, 2011


A quote I just came across:

“People often say that motivation doesn’t last. Well, neither does bathing; that’s why we recommend it daily.” Zig Ziglar.

I had to share.
I'll be back soon . . . =D

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

I'm coming back . . .

Soon. I promise. =)

Monday, April 11, 2011

How Am I doing?

I've been better. After that steller first week of exercising, I didn't do too hot on the eating front on the weekend and it showed on Monday with a GAIN on the scale. =( A lot little discouraging to say the least. I continued going to the gym all last week though! (except for Friday but I stayed up until 1 am on Thursday night because I was working from home). I pulled it back together and today I showed a 1.4 lb loss. I can do better. I will do better.

This weekend I got to the point where I was sick of eating junk. So I chose differently. Did I choose great? Probably not. Was it better than it had been? Most definitely!

So I keep trucking along. Slowly, slowly slowly .. .

Friday, April 01, 2011

Ugh So tired

I am so tired today. This week and waking up to work out and working out in the evening is catching up to me. I did not want to do the Shred last night. Thankfully, my lovely children, wanted to do it with me so they pushed me to put it in the DVD player and we all did it together. Well Taylor sat and watched ;) but Emily and Connor did a lot of it with me. Of course the first thing out of their mouth this morning - Can we do exercise DVD tonight? Emily is so entralled in me changing into my exercise clothes LOL!

This morning was a struggle. I've told Connor that if he is a rainbow all week long we can have donuts on Fridays before school. Since I knew this was going to happen, I ate a bagel/cream cheese this morning so I would't be tempted when we went to the donut shop. Ugh. Didn't help. I still got an apple fritter. :sigh: I can still pull out today. Plus I did go to the gym this morning even though I'm SO TIRED. I know this is just temporary and it will get better once I get into a routine but it's hard the first week or two. I'm sitting here drinking a 24 oz of Diet Pepsi hoping the caffeine will wake me. Thankfully I had 32 ozs of water this morning at the gym but after this soda, it's all water the rest of today. I'm just so tired . . . Ugh.

Jillian Michael's 30 Day Shred

I got this DVD for Christmas from the hubby (it was on my list ;) ). I FINALLY broke it out this past week and started supplementing my morning going to the gym with an evening of the Shred! Wow is all I can say. Yesterday was Day 4 and I so did not want to do it but I did. The first day felt so great! I was so sore and I felt it on Tuesday! I haven't had the feeling in a long time and it felt GREAT. Finally yesterday (thursday) the soreness had subsided. I'm planning on doing it every day that I possibly and and moving up a level after 10 days. It is definitely a GREAT workout for 25 mins!! I'll keep you updated!

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

Doing good so far

Well Day one was a success. Day two is on track. It's the next days that are going to be rough. Always are. Once I get in a routine, I should be ok. Journaled and was under 1400 calories yesterday. =) Went to the gym in the morning AND did the Shred last night (boy did that kick my butt!!). Only one soda yesterday even though I almost forgot and was going to have one with dinner but changed to water. I may just limit myself to two a day. Will rethink that. I did not do the sit ups as the Shred has an ab part to it but I will start adding my own ab work in too once I get comfortable with the Shred. All in all I am HAPPY with yesterday. =)

Monday, March 28, 2011

20 in 7 - The Vegas Challenge

So my bff and I are going to Vegas for my 35th birthday!! Yippee!! Now although I should have been to goal by then I will not be. But that's ok. I'm moving forward from here. ;) So my goal is to lose 20 lbs before we go in 7 weeks. Unfortunately, my birthday falls on Mother's Day weekend so can't go that weekend so we are going the following weekend. =) Yeah!!! I can't wait.

Here is what I am going to do to accomplish this goal:

1.) Journal
2.) Stay within 1200-1400 calories a day
3.) Drink 64 ozs of water a day minimum
4.) Only drink 1 soda a day
5.) Go to the gym in the morning before work Monday-Friday
6.) Do Jillian Michael's 30 day shred at night
7.) Do 100 sit ups a night (work up to 500???)

I'll keep updating as best I can!

Starting Weight: 189.0

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

Week One of Trying to Get Back on Track

Ok, yesterday was ok. I journaled everything! Yeah! I drank 32 ozs of water. Not the 64 I was shooting for but better than zero! And i did not work out in the morning.

Today, I did not work out this morning. I think I'm going to scrap that this week and start fresh on Monday.  Funny thing, I got woken up twice by Taylor and I felt more ready to wake up at 3:45 then the night before when I slept straight though. Go figure! I plan on journaling everything today (I didn't do half bad yesterday and I should realize that!) and I am going to get my full 64 ozs of water in today. :)

Baby Steps.

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

Reporting In

So I said yesterday I would do three things. Well I'm on track to do two. I never woke up this morning and went to work out. :( I just couldn't get up. Ugh! And I didn't get woken up by the kids either so what the heck? Maybe I need to be woken up so I'm not deeply sleeping?? Who knows. I'll try again tomorrow.

I'm on my first 16 ozs of water.
I've journaled my breakfast and lunch (haven't eaten lunch yet) in myfitnesspal.

I even have dinner planned out tonight. :) Yeah! Now to just get my butt up and get exercising.

Plan for exercising tomorrow - Start C25K over again.

Monday, March 21, 2011

It's time

It's time to get back to this. I've been slacking off BIG time. I am almost back in the 190's. I look like I'm pregnant. Eek!! I wouldn't be surprised if some of my coworkers thought I was pregnant!! This is ridiculous. What is worth more to me?? And the sad thing is, the food - isn't even that tasty half the time. Ugh!! So I begin. And the only way to begin is by baby steps - correct?? So here is the plan for this week:

1. Drink 64 ozs of water each day.
2. Go to the gym before work Tuesday - Friday
3. Write down everything I eat at

That's is just three things. I can do this.

Starting weight today - 189.2 :(

Thursday, January 06, 2011

Coming Out

I'm coming out of hiding. It's not pretty. I need to revamp myself. I need to revamp my THINKING. I need to do something. I can't live like this. My clothes don't fit. I'm spending money on food (JUNKFOOD) when I should be saving. I'm being careless and I'm not being the person that I want to be or that I want people to see me as. This has got to change. And it will. Baby steps. One step at a time. One day at a time. I CAN do this. So stay tuned. I'll try not to stay away too long. ;)