Monday, December 04, 2006

Not a good way to start December

A 1 lb gain. I guess I shouldn't complain since I really haven't been careful. I need to get back with the program. I really need to start exercising again. Maybe tonight. No maybe's, YES tonight! I WILL go out and walk. I will get back in the habit. I'm thinking of starting to walk at work again. It's not too hot anymore so I can't use that excuse, ha-ha! I know Christmas is coming up but that isn't as big a deal to me as Thanksgiving and Connor's birthday was. If I can get back into the swing of things I KNOW I can continue to lose weight. Let's just hope I can!!!

Monday, November 27, 2006

Thanksgiving and B-day Party are OVER!!!

Thank god!!! And I managed to lose two lbs last week after a .2 lb gain the week before. I'll take it. I am back on track today and ready to kick these last pounds to the curb!!! Everyone at Connor's b-day party was saying I looked amazing. And didn't think I needed to lose any more weight. I know I do though. I saw a couple of the pictures and although I look good, I could look better. So that is my goal! I need to get back to the wogging and continue to eat right and I am going to SAIL through December. Let's see if I can make my end of year goal. Only about 11 lbs to go!!

Monday, November 13, 2006

50 lbs DOWN!!!

Tuesday, November 07, 2006

I'm NOT Obese!!!

I just realized I needed to figure out my BMI since I had been over 30 for the longest time (which means obese). I've lost almost 50 lbs so it had to have gone down. It is now 28.3!!! I am no longer obese I am "only" overweight!!! WOO HOO!!!

Monday, November 06, 2006

Not 50 lbs . . . yet!

I did not hit 50 lbs lost this week. I did if you count my WI on Saturday that was not official. Oh well. I am not going to complain about a 1.9 lb loss! I need to lose 1.4 this week to hit 50 lbs! I am determined to hit that!! We are going camping this weekend so I need to save up my flex points for that. We do a potluck on Saturday. Everybody brings their own main dish and supplies a side dish for about 15 people. We did it last camping trip and it worked out really good!

I did not get as much done this weekend as I had hoped. Oh well. Dh and I got in a big fight on Saturday. Over what you ask? Shoes. And not shoes for me but shoes for Connor. The shoes I bought are really hard to get on him. Length wise they fit him but they are really hard to stretch and stuff his foot in. So he got mad at me for buying shoes that don't fit. UGH!! What an ass. Anyway, so that ruined my Saturday. This weekend I don't have time to do anything around the house since we are camping so that leaves the following weekend and week before Connor's b-day to get everything done (and the house cleaned!). I'm glad I took the whole week off now! I can do little things throughout the week in the evening so we'll see. :sigh: I just feel like I have so much to do and so little time. UGH!!

Tuesday, October 31, 2006

100 days!

I have been OP for 100 day straight! WOO HOO!! I hit the 3 digit mark!!!! I'm shooting for 6 months now! YEAH!!!!

Monday, October 30, 2006

2 more lbs

Well another week down another 2 lbs gone! YEAH! Although that means in order to reach my goal next week I have to lose 3.3 lbs this week! YIKES!!! I can do it if I get out there and exercise. I just feel so stressed out and need to do so many things that I don't know if wogging will be in my future right now. Speaking of which, I just feel so pissed off all the time lately. No matter what happens I'm pissed off. Mostly at dh. I'm just tired of this double standard that goes on. He yells at me for the stupidest shit and yet when I'm upset I don't say anything or if I do say something he blows it off. Let's see about a month ago I had opened the windows in Connor's room to get some air flow in there and put him down for a nap. He was edgey all day to begin with. When he pulled up in the driveway (which he doesn't normally do) Connor woke up so he yelled at me saying why did you leave the windows open. Fastforward to yesterday he never closed the window when he was napping and both myself and his brother pulled into the driveway. Did I say anything? No. It's all about him. Shit I feel like a single mother most of the time. Except for him getting Connor ready in the morning and feeding him dinner at night, taking him to and from daycare, there really isn't much more he does. I pay the bills, I do the laundry, I clean the house, I do the dishes, I cook dinner. He will do bottles every other week basically. I do the grocery shopping. He takes care of the cars (how often does that happen?) and the motorhome (once a month he washes it and does periodic maitenance on it). He takes care of our quads (once we sell mine that will only be HIS quad). He doesn't mow ( we have a gardener). I'm really trying to think of what he does. All I see him do is be on the computer looking up stuff or sitting in the living room complaining he has a headache. It's getting really old. And I'm really tired of being pissed off.

Monday, October 23, 2006

Things that Make you go Hmm . . . .

So I actually lost weight this past week! WOAH! 2.9 lbs to be exact! Who'da thunk it! I really didn't think I was going to lose. I didn't really exercise. We were busy getting ready for the trip and I had alcohol on Friday night and enjoyed myself at dinner on Saturday (stayed OP though!). So I guess I really do deserve the 2.9 loss especially after the 1 lb gain the week before. I'll definitely take it! I have 5 lbs to lose in two weeks to meet my goal. Let's see if I can do it!! We aren't going camping for another 3 weeks so I should be OK. We will see!!!

Wednesday, October 18, 2006


Why do I struggle. I am so struggling. And it's only going to get harder the next few months with Thanksgiving and Christmas. UGH!! I WILL get through the week, I WILL!! I so want to see the 160's next week. If I keep eating like I am, I'm not going to see it. Why why why do I have to suddenly have a sweet tooth. :sigh: I'm usually not this bad either. I do not want to gain back the 40 lbs I've spent the last 8 months losing!! I would LOVE to lose another 20 lbs by the end of this year. I just have to keep thinking of that. Keep thinking of that, keep thinking of that. :sigh:

Monday, October 16, 2006

A Gain, oh well.

I was OP all last week BUT i still had a gain. I was kinda expecting it though. It's been a rough last two weeks and even though I've been OP, I haven't been eating the healthiest. That's OK. I'm not gonna let it get me down. I started Week 4 of the W2R program which was 1 min walk/3 min jog. Whew! Felt really good but jogging for 3 mins straight wore me out. A good wore out though. LOL! I'm gonna keep with it and get fit and keep dropping these pounds.

Thursday, October 12, 2006

An update

I really need to get better at updating this blog. I just copied over everything from my old xanga to a word document and i have been reading it. It's really interesting! Brings back lots of memories from when I was going through the whole weight loss thing in 2004. AND it's made me want to keep up here better. Having something that's written down and reminds you of where you have been is good. You get to enjoy the good moments again and become aware of where you went wrong so you don't have to go through the bad ones again.

So far I've been really good with staying OP. I've basically lost count but I know 100 days OP will be Oct. 31st! I have struggled the last week with stressors at home but knowing that 100 days is approaching is really helping me to stick with it.

I've joined a new challenge at c2l. It's called the biggest chooser! i hope to win. I'm going to work hard and do my best! If I lose the 21 lbs I want to lose by the end of the year I think I will have a great chance! ;)

Monday, August 21, 2006

One day shy of 30 days!

Can you believe that I am one day shy of being OP for 30 days!?!?! I can't. I just want to keep going. That's the great thing about being OP so long, I don't want to do anything to ruin it. I did awesome this past weekend. I met Jen from C2L on Saturday for dinner. We had a great time. =) I think we could have sat there and talked all night long. It was like we've known each other forever. It was nice. It was the first day they got into CA so I'm hoping they are having a great time at Disneyland and everything else they decide to do.

I also saved all my flex points for yesterday's "booze cruise" with my coworkers. I had a blast, enjoyed myself and was able to stay OP. I only ate the one meal all day but I was not hungry for dinner because of the brunch so that was fine. I managed to lose .6 lbs this past week too. I know it could have been better but I didn't exercise at all all week. I'm not sure if I'm going to be able to this week either. We have so much to do to get ready for our camping trip on Sunday. UGH! I still haven't even gone to the grocery store. Not great when I want to stay OP and have nothing to eat for lunch. Woops! Oh well. I will get to the grocery store tonight after Conner goes to bed. Hopefully!!

Thursday, August 17, 2006

Day 25 - I think?!?

I didn't realize it had been that long since I've updated on here! I am on day 25 I think of being OP! Yeah!!!! I can't believe it. It's been so long, I'm almost losing track!! I am determined to stay OP for 30 days (and more!). I am just going to have a problem this weekend. I am meeting up with a girl from my C2L board for dinner. That should be lots of fun! AND we are doing a champagne brunch on Sunday. So I really have to save my flex points for this weekened. And I have not been exercising. Just not in the mood. I don't know why. I think about, I want to do it, and then the time comes and I'm like nah. I'll do it tomorrow. I will not be able to exercise when we go camping probably because it will be in the 100's there. UGH! Oh well. I will continue to stay OP and I WILL get back to exercising.

Friday, August 04, 2006

Day 12

And still doing it!! No stopping me now. LOL!!!

Thursday, July 27, 2006

Day Four and going strong!!

I'm OP and feeling great. I still have not managed to exercise this week though. UGH!!! What a pain. I keep wanting to weigh myself. Everyone else in my challenge team at C2L weighs themselve every day and they are saying they've lost 2 -3 lbs. I so want to see that but I know if I weigh myself and don't see that, I'll get depressed and sabotage myself. I don't need that!! I just need to wait until Monday. That is not a big deal.

I am still going strong with OP till goal!! I plan on keeping that way!!

Tuesday, July 25, 2006

Pictures Suck!

All I have to do is share and you'll get the picture. Look at my big honkin' arm!

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And another. You can see all my rolls in their glory. But at least my son is a cutie!!

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Monday, July 24, 2006

First day of being OP till Goal!!!!

I am determined to be OP till goal. I've said this for the past month but I am serious!!!! I want out of the 190's. I want to sail through the 180's. I want to make it past the 170's and into the 160's which I haven't seen in a LONG LONG LONG time. Then I would like to glimpse the 150's, then possible get pg again, go up to no more than the 170's and then come back down and hit 135! That would be my dream. The only way to do that is to be OP always and forever. I can do it. It just takes some will power at first. Then it will become habit and I won't have to stress. I forget the saying but it's something like it takes 7 weeks to start a habit. So I am planning on starting this OP habit right now!!!

Monday, July 17, 2006

Need to get CRACKIN'

I need to get crackin' if I want to show a loss for this month. As it stands right now, I have gained 0.7 lbs this month. Considering what I've been doing, that's not too bad. But I should be doing so much better!! I really want to start ttc but I want to lose this weight first. So, the faster I lose the weight, the sooner I can ttc again. You'd think that would be motivation enough for me. :s Oh well. It will happen and I will get back into my 10/12's again. I know I will!!!

Thursday, July 13, 2006

Getting out of the funk and A 5K??

I'm starting to get out of my mood. AF is supposed to get here this weekend so hopefully that doesn't do anything to me. But I'm back to exercising and that feels so great!!! I want to do a 5K and I found one that is right on the Beach in Huntington Beach on 10/7. I'm going to prepare like I'm going to run it. But let's see if I actually get the gumption up to actually do it! I did jog/walk last night. Go me!! I tried to do the 1 min jog and 4 min walk last night. I never quite got the full 1 min jog but I'll get up to it! I know I will. Let's just see if I have the nerve to actually do the 5K.

Friday, July 07, 2006

Starting Over

I guess I should get back to this and update. Bad Heather. This is an excellent place for me to whine and complain since no one really knows about this journal or visits. At least it doesn't appear to me that they visit I could be wrong. I really need to get back into the swing of things. I had lost 22 lbs since Feb. 1st but I am slowly gaining it back. I will not let that happen! Starting tomorrow I am going to walk in the morning and evenings on the weekends and in the evening during the week. I am going to follow WWs and get this weight off. We are going to the Beach next weekend and I should have been in the 180's but I know I won't now. And that is my fault. UGH!!!

Monday, April 24, 2006

New week

Good Morning!!!! Guess what? I'm up, EXERCISED! and water in hand. Yippee!!!! Go me!!! Woo Hoo!!! That's right! I got up at 4am so I could get in 30 minutes of an exercise video. I feel so great! Although I know the first couple of days are the hardest. Wait until the end of this week. LOL! But I feel pretty good. And I lost 0.4 this week. How I have no idea considering I wasn't really watching what I was eating last week but I'll take it!! I'm ready to get out of this stupid 190's!!!!

Wednesday, April 12, 2006

I'm surprised!

I actually lost weight last week. I lost almost exactly what I gained the week before. Go figure. But I have a feeling this week I am going to gain again. I've been eating everything! Darn coworker brought peanuts and pistachios and almonds in. Now the almonds are disgusting and the peanuts, I tried but not too fond of. But the pistachios? Yummy. Darn them!! The reason I've been eating everything, it finally dawned on me last night. AF is due to arrive this weekend. UGH!! Oh well. Not much I can do. But now that I know what is going on, I can combat it. I can quit eating the nuts and I can have a banana instead. If I need two bananas that's fine. It's better than a handful of nuts!

We are going to visit my parents this weekend. I am so looking forward to it! They haven't seen Connor since January! He's grown so much. :) It should be fun. I have to bring Connor to Mom's work on Friday so her coworkers can see him. One of the coworkers even switched her Drs appt so she could be there!!

I'm still struggling with exercising. I just am not fitting it into my day when I know I can. I'm just being lazy. Like on Monday. I'm so hopelessy behing on TiVo'd shows that I sat and watched three episodes of Lost. It was nice to just sit there though! I can't remember the last time I was able to sit for that long and do nothing. I know it will come in time. I just have to be patient. Patient and proactive!

Wednesday, April 05, 2006

I guess I should post more

It's been awhile. I did really good in March!! I lost 9.8 lbs that month and was OP 29/31 days! Then I went to Vegas and all hell has broken loose. I just can't get back into it. I'm super tired from my weekend plus Connor has taken to waking up in the middle of the night for a feeding now. UGH!! I also gained 2.4 lbs after my weekend in Vegas. And if I don't stop what I'm doing now, it's just going to get worse. UGH!!! I can do this.

This picture here is one from when I was at my all time low. I want to get back there and then more! I can do it.

Monday, March 13, 2006

Yippee Yippee Yippee

I lost 3.9 lbs last week!! I think it's the exercise that did it. As part of the BTTB challenge on c2l we had to exercise at least 10 min everyday. Did I do that? Hell Yes! I'm going to get as much points as I possibly can because I want to win this challenge. :) So I exercised on Friday and Saturday while Connor slept. I put an exercise video in and did it. And on Sunday, he did not want to nap so I put him in his bouncy chair with a couple of toys and he watched me. :) Worked out pretty well. He got a little fussy 10 mins in, but then he was ok. Once he gets better neck control I can put him in his exersaucer (which he LOVES) and feel comfortable watching him in there while I exercise without being right on top of him. So this just proved to me that exercise CAN be done at home.

Next week: Onderland here I come!!!!

Monday, March 06, 2006

Good weekend

I had a fabulous weekend!! And when I weighed in this morning I lost 2.2 lbs!! Yippee!!! I was kinda sad when I first saw the number and I couldn't figure out why. Then it hit me. I know why I'm so bummed. I'm still over that ugly 200 lb mark. But then I realized hey, I lost 2 lbs!!! That's awesome! And that was enough to get me in a GREAT mood!! We are going camping this coming weekend. I can't wait. Sometimes it's a little hard for me to stay OP there but I know I can do it. All I have to do is plan, plan, plan and I will do it!!!!

Friday, March 03, 2006

Another WI

Well I WI with the group yesterday. They let me skip last week. Well the sort of kind of didn't have a choice. I didn't WI. :) So I lost 1.2 lbs per their scale. I think it said I'm at like 210.x I don't really remember. I'm just doing it to do it. :) We'll see how I do next week.

I've been pretty good so far this week. I'm proud of myself. I just have to be careful this weekend. What I really need to start doing is exercising and I just can't seem to find time. UGH!!!

Tuesday, February 28, 2006

Sickness does not become me

I caught a cold last week. And so did my poor son. His first. But when I'm sick all I want to do is eat. And so I did. I didn't want to not get better as soon as possible. I didn't overdo it but I didn't eat within my points either. Hurt me a little. I gained a little over a lb. I'm still alittle stuffy but not like I was last week thank god! I'm back on track as of Monday and raring to go!

On a good note, I lost 4.9 lbs for the month of February. Not bad! Now if only I could find time to exercise. My goal this month is to exercise at least twice a week. I should be able to find 30 mins on Saturday's and Sunday's so that is what I am going to try and do.

Tuesday, February 21, 2006


Ever since that WI last Thursday I've been struggling. I've still been OP but I've been struggling. I basically used most of my flex points yesterday and it was the start of the week. :( My own fault. I know the number on the scale shouldn't mean anything but it does. Especially right now. I have no time to exercise except when I'm at work. I have been faithfully going every morning and walking around the block. I think I'm going to add in the afternoons here and there. Maybe that will help. I know being back at work will help tremendously. I have my meals planned till the end of the month. I know what I have to do and what worked for me in the past. I just don't know if it will work for me now.

I went to Kohl's on Sunday. I have so much fun buying clothes for Connor. :) It's me that I don't have fun buying for. But I needed some things for work. I'm running out of clothes. They are all too small on me. I hate this. So I went to the clearance rack. Ended up buying a skirt (a size 20). I have NEVER had to buy that size before. Oh well. I know I won't be in it that long. At least I can hope right. I can do the necessary things that have to be done in order for me NOT to be in the size anymore. I just have to get off my ass and do it.

Friday, February 17, 2006


Ok i have to vent here. I just don't get it. So last night was the WI for our group challenge but I also weigh myself at home on my own scale on Monday mornings. (Hopefully this doesn't get too confusing!). On 2/5 when I weighed myself at home I was 212.4. When i went for the first WI on 2/9 I was 212.8 on that scale. Ok it showed me .4 lbs higher no big deal right? So I weighed myself on my scale on 2/12. I was 208.2. A 4 lb loss. I get weighed last night on the other scale, 212.2. WHAT THE HELL!?!?! I know I've lost more weight than that. And it's funny. EVERYONE but me thought they were going to gain and I was the one that lost the least amount. No one gained last week. I just don't get it. Makes me want to say screw it. If that's how it's going to be I'll just eat whatever I want to eat and screw it! I almost did this morning to. I was going to get a donut from the snack bar but they didn't have the one I wanted. At least I didn't just get any donut. Since they didn't have the one I wanted I said screw it and came up to the office and had my nilla wafers. Just as good just not a lot. Oh well. I just don't understand. I'm sure it will even out in the end but I still think it's ridiculous.

Thursday, February 16, 2006

Tonight is first group WI

Well, tonight is the first group WI for our little challenge. Should be interesting. I need to call Shawn or Jamie and see what time. I'm excited to go weigh and see what the difference is on that scale vs my own. I've decided to keep WI on Monday's with my scale. That will be on constant even after this whole challenge is over with so I should just keep doing that. I'll just get weighed twice a week and realize that there will be differences because they are two different scales so I won't compare the two.

Monday, February 13, 2006

Woo Hoo!!!!

Good morning!!! I weighed in this morning and (drumroll please!!!!) DOWN 4.2 lbs!!!! Yippee!! I am going to be switching to Thursday's to WI though. The girls in my neighborhood all got together and we are going to WI on Thursday's and challenge ourselves. Basically what we are doing is weighing in and if you have maintained and not lost any weight you have to pay $5. For every ounce you gain it's another $1 so if you gain a lb it's $15. That will really motivate me not to gain weight!! So anyway, I'm just going to go off that scale instead of mine at home. I figure it will be easier.

Our camping trip was fun this past weekend until yesterday. On the way home our friends flipped their trailer on the freeway. Thankfully no one was hurt but the Suburban and Trailer are totaled. It was pretty knarly looking. We were ahead of them and didn't even realize it happened but we were caravaning home and our other friends that were behind them called us up and told us so we got off the freeway and turned around. It was pretty scary. I can only say thankfully no one was injured. It was the mom, dad, their two sons and their two dogs. NO ONE had a scratch on them!!

Thursday, February 09, 2006

3 Days in a row!!

I've been OP!! Yippee!! And I plan to keep it that way and going. I've also walked all this week on my morning break at work. Yippee. We are going camping this weekend, leaving tonight so let's see how I do. I know I can do this. I just have to be strong!

Wednesday, February 08, 2006


YAWN! Good Morning everyone. I'm so tired. Connor woke up at 3:30am. I took him, went into the living room and rocked him back to sleep. By the time he was ready to go back into bed, it was 4:15 no reason for me to go back to bed so I've been up. I have a feeling today is going to be a LONG day!

Yesterday a coworker brought in cheesey garlic bread. I caved in and had some of it. But it went so nicely with my pasta I was having for lunch I couldn't pass it up. Unfortuantely though, I had two helpings. Why, I don't know. It wasn't even that good. Why do I do that to myself? UGH!! But, I didn't blow the rest of the day away like I usually would have in the past. Instead, I said ok what's done is done, how can I fix it? I still had flex points and I ate a little less at dinner than I normally would have and I only had to use 9 flex for yesterday. I figure this is my first week being back into the swing of things, so these things are going to happen. I'm just going to deal with it and move on!!

Tuesday, February 07, 2006

On Program!!!

I was OP yesterday. Woo Hoo!!! Go me. I even got a walk in, in the morning. I have actually set up a reminder in outlook everyday at 9:30am that tells me to go for a walk. Hopefully that will keep me going. We are going camping this weekend. We use to snack so much at camping trips but that's kinda gone by the wayside. I should be able to do good. We have our meals planned and hopefully I can get some exercise in.

One of my coworkers brought in some garlic cheesey bread from Black Angus. I'm hoping I can resist the temptation. I guess it looks really good. I wouldn't know, I haven't looked at it!! Hopefully I can stay away from it. :crosses fingers:

Monday, February 06, 2006

First week = Loss :)

Good Monday morning!! I had a rough weekend. Saturday was ok for the most part. Finally got my nails done again. It's been over a year since I've had them done. My hands look so much better now! And it makes me feel better about myself so you know what? That $70 a month is so worth it! I just have to find time to go every two weeks now.

Sunday was a little harder. I was upset with dh almost the whole day. And it wasn't anything in particular. Not to mention I hardly got to spend any time with Connor because I was either cooking (for dh's family coming over), or he was napping. Then his family came over and basically hogged him all afternoon. Oh well. I hardly get any time with him during the week I want to spend as much time as i can on the weekend with him. I wish there were more hours in the day sometimes.

On a positive note, I weighed myself this morning and I am down 1.2 lbs. Not bad for not being entirely good last week. Just think what I can do this week if I start counting points and walking when I can.

Thursday, February 02, 2006


Well I am disappointed in myself. Dh had a dentist appt tonight so he took Connor over to my MIL's house and she watched him since I couldn't get home in time to pick him up so I was on my own for dinner. SO where did I go? McDonalds. And you know what, it wasn't that good. I think I finally have it out of my system. At least I hope.


Well you gotta have goals in life right? So here are my weight loss goals for 2006.

March 27 - 15 lbs down (Brings me into Onederland!)
April 24 - 20 lbs down (193.6)
August 28 - 40 lbs down (173.6)
October 30 - 50 lbs down!! (163.6)
December 25 - 60 lbs down (153.6)

So if all goes well, I could potentially lose 60 lbs this year. It's doable. A little tough, but doable! And if I don't set some high (attainable) goals for myself, I will just slack off. So there we go!

First day back at work report

I did pretty well yesterday. I stopped on my way home from work to grab dinner from Quizno's since dh knew I would be in no mood to cook since I hadn't seen Connor all day. Worked out perfectly but I know I have to start cooking here sooner or later. I'm tired of eating out all the time and I'm sure we could save money by not eating out. I just have to plan, plan, plan. So I'm going to print out the calendar for every month this year and every month plan on food for that month. Hopefully it works. I'm still not sure how I'm going to get exercise in. I know I can start walking at work and maybe for the first couple of months that will be good enough. Once we can get Connor to go to bed earlier (say 8ish) I can start doing an exercise tape then but right now he doesn't go to bed until 10 or 11. I know it will evolve as he gets older and can sleep longer.

I start the weight loss thing the girls from the neighborhood this Sunday. Should be interesting. There is already dissention among the ranks because the girls that don't have as much to lose are thinking they will never win so are thinking of dropping out. I guess I will find out on Sunday if we are going to continue or how many people are going to continue. We will see!

Wednesday, February 01, 2006

Chugging along

Well, I'm chugging along. Today was my first day back at work and so far so good. I'm doing much better not being at home. Although I didn't eat breakfast until 11:00am. But that's because I was busy getting situated at work. I had 390 e-mails when I logged on this morning. I guess that's what happens when you are gone for three months. :)

So far this is what I've eaten today:

Diet Soda
English Muffin w/ butter
String Cheese
Lean Cuisine (Veggie Eggroll)
Diet Soda
String Cheese
Quizno's Salad

That is probably 10 pts so far. I can't remember how many points I am allowed though. I will have look it up in my WW stuff from before. I know Sunday is going to be hard on me. It's Super Bowl Sunday. We are having Surbjit's family over. At least we don't have to bring a bunch of Connor's stuff somewhere, makes it so much easier.

Monday, January 30, 2006

Day 1 not so hot

Well day one is not going so good. I'm feeling alittle overwhelmed what with Connor going to daycare. I miss him. When I went to the grocery store I picked up a box of twinkies and I've eaten like 5. Let's just say that was my lunch. Not good. I know eating is not going to help me. But I just can't help it. I know it will get easier. I don't want to call and see if he is doing good because if I hear him crying I'll just get upset. I just hope and pray that everything is going good. I'm sure it is. He is the best baby in the world. Very easy going. I know in a couple of weeks I'll look back at this and think what did I ever worry about. :) I just have to quit using food as a form of comfort.

First week

Well today is the first day of the new me! And of course I had to send my baby off to daycare so it's a little hard on me today. I know it will get easier. At least I'm not going back to work until Wednesday.

I weighed in this morning. 213.6!!!! UGH!!! I've NEVER seen that high of a number on the scale unless I was pregnant (and that doesn't count). I can't believe it. So I'm going to get serious here. It's about time. I need to get my butt in gear and plan meals. That's the only way I'm going to be able to get through this. I'm just going to take it one day at a time. That's all I can do.

Saturday, January 28, 2006

Starting Fresh

Well I wanted to start fresh after my pregnancy with my weight loss so what better way than to start a new blog!! Woo Hoo!! Unfortunately I am at my all time high. But fortunately it came after a really great life experience. The birth of my cute baby boy! But now it's time to get serious. We would like another child and I so do not want to be this weight ever again. Even if I am pregnant. It's not that I looked all that bad pregnant. I think I looked decent. But I'd like to look really good. I'd like to look really good not pregnant!! So I'm starting anew on Monday. I will weigh myself and keep myself accountable here.

There are some girls in my neighborhood that starting a weight loss club. I really can't call it a club it's more like a bet. Everyone puts $25 in a month and whoever has lost the most percentage of weight gets the money. That would be $150!! They also decided that if you gain weight in a week, it's $5 a lb!! Really makes you not want to gain weight! Well, they started before I could get in on it so I'm joining up in February. I have one week before I can join but I so want to. I think it will help get me the motivation that I need. I did so well in 2004 with losing weight. I lost over 30 lbs that year. I just need to do it again and do it better this time.

I will have my hubby take a before picture of me within the next couple of days and post it. Hopefully that will also help in my motivation. I have no clothes to wear. They all look like crap on me. UGH!!

So my plan is to lose 50 lbs this year. I think it's doable. But we will shall see!!!!