Monday, January 30, 2006

Day 1 not so hot

Well day one is not going so good. I'm feeling alittle overwhelmed what with Connor going to daycare. I miss him. When I went to the grocery store I picked up a box of twinkies and I've eaten like 5. Let's just say that was my lunch. Not good. I know eating is not going to help me. But I just can't help it. I know it will get easier. I don't want to call and see if he is doing good because if I hear him crying I'll just get upset. I just hope and pray that everything is going good. I'm sure it is. He is the best baby in the world. Very easy going. I know in a couple of weeks I'll look back at this and think what did I ever worry about. :) I just have to quit using food as a form of comfort.

First week

Well today is the first day of the new me! And of course I had to send my baby off to daycare so it's a little hard on me today. I know it will get easier. At least I'm not going back to work until Wednesday.

I weighed in this morning. 213.6!!!! UGH!!! I've NEVER seen that high of a number on the scale unless I was pregnant (and that doesn't count). I can't believe it. So I'm going to get serious here. It's about time. I need to get my butt in gear and plan meals. That's the only way I'm going to be able to get through this. I'm just going to take it one day at a time. That's all I can do.

Saturday, January 28, 2006

Starting Fresh

Well I wanted to start fresh after my pregnancy with my weight loss so what better way than to start a new blog!! Woo Hoo!! Unfortunately I am at my all time high. But fortunately it came after a really great life experience. The birth of my cute baby boy! But now it's time to get serious. We would like another child and I so do not want to be this weight ever again. Even if I am pregnant. It's not that I looked all that bad pregnant. I think I looked decent. But I'd like to look really good. I'd like to look really good not pregnant!! So I'm starting anew on Monday. I will weigh myself and keep myself accountable here.

There are some girls in my neighborhood that starting a weight loss club. I really can't call it a club it's more like a bet. Everyone puts $25 in a month and whoever has lost the most percentage of weight gets the money. That would be $150!! They also decided that if you gain weight in a week, it's $5 a lb!! Really makes you not want to gain weight! Well, they started before I could get in on it so I'm joining up in February. I have one week before I can join but I so want to. I think it will help get me the motivation that I need. I did so well in 2004 with losing weight. I lost over 30 lbs that year. I just need to do it again and do it better this time.

I will have my hubby take a before picture of me within the next couple of days and post it. Hopefully that will also help in my motivation. I have no clothes to wear. They all look like crap on me. UGH!!

So my plan is to lose 50 lbs this year. I think it's doable. But we will shall see!!!!