Need to do something

This whole weight loss thing just isn't working right now. And I'm not sure why. Is it the weather? It seems I do some much better in the summer/fall time losing weight. Is it the kids? It's hard to lose weight when I'm not sleeping at night because they keep waking up. Is it the hubby? Its hard to focus when you are just irritated with the lack of help and the hypocriticalness of some people. Or is it me? It's probably just me. I need a new mind set. Can someone give me theirs? I'd really appreciate it. Until I find that right mind set - I have a feeling I'm going to be spinning my wheels.

Let's take this past week. Starting out great. Was journaling, drinking my water. But then dh went to bed early. And what did i do? Proceeded to stuff my face. For some reason, I feel the need to binge when he is not around. Why? I think i feel like he is watching me and accounting for what is going in my mouth when he really isn't. But when he isn't around, I feel like I can have a free for all. What should i have done the TWO nights he went to bed early? I should have started the Wii and popped in those games i wanted so bad for Christmas that i got and have not even OPENED. Not even OPENED. ugh. I will learn. It takes time. It takes time to change my mental attitude. It takes time to change my habits that got ingrained in me. But I'm working at it. Slowly . . . .

Book Review - The Mystery of the Third Lucretia

The Mystery of the Third Lucretia was a FABULOUS book. The book is about two friends who go on an adventure. When they travel to London with Kari's mom, they didn't look for an adventure but it found them! They get wrapped up in mystery and mayhem and are drawn in by the quest to find out what is going on! This is the perfect book for any teenager who loves a good mystery to read. Or even an adult that is a teenager at heart. This book had mystery, intrigue and lots of great writing all rolled into one. This was definnitely a page turner for me. I kept want to read more and find out what happened. The author Susan Runholt is fabulous and I can't wait to read more of her work!!

Disclosure of Material Connection: I received this book free from the author Susan Runholt. I was not required to write a positive review. The opinions I have expressed are my own. I am disclosing this in accordance with the Federal Trade Commission’s 16 CFR, Part 255: “Guides Concerning the Use of Endorsements and Testimonials in Advertising.”

Weigh In Monday

Well Since I've been really bad this month I can't really say that I'm surprised. I can only say that I'm surprised it wasn't worse!! Stepped on the scale today and it said

156.6

That is up 0.6 lbs. Not bad. But it's gotta end. I'm no longer in the low 150's knocking on the 140s door. But that is where I want to be. No I want to be in the 140s. A place I haven't been since high school. And I will get there. It may not be before my birthday like I had hoped but that's ok. I calculated it out and if I lose 1 lb a week I will lose these last 26 lbs by 8/22. That's right before Connor starts Kindergarten! I can be the M.I.L.F. I can be the Hot Mama!! =) Hee hee! So I'm working on my goals for this week that I posted last week. I will acheive them! Plus I am adding one more. No more BLTs. No more Bites, Licks, and Tastes. I'm getting into the really bad habit of finishing off the kids plates. I HATE to waste food but I need to be healthy more than I need to be free of wasting food. We went to McD's for dinner on Friday and I had a Big Mac (yes cane me now!). Then I finished off Connor's 2 Chicken Nuggets he didn't finish. Did I need them? NO! Absolutely not. :sigh: So no more! No more BLTs!!!

Time to Get SERIOUS

Really Heather. There is no reason for you to be slacking off like this. Your clothes are starting to get tight again (thank god I moved down to an 8 -10 or I'd really be in trouble!). Your stomach isn't right because you aren't eating healthy. Your skin is dry and you are breaking out because you haven't been drinking your water or eating healthy. Your kids are starting to pick up on your bad habits!! Is this how you want to be? Is this how you want to live? No it's not.

So it's time to get serious. I NEED to get serious. Had I been serious. I could have gotten to my goal by my birthday. Now. not possible. I can get darn close though!!! I WILL get darn close. So my friend Mandie has weekly goals so I'm going to start doing that. Here they are:

Weekly Goals for 2/22/10:

1. Journal
2. Drink 64 ozs of water a day
3. Exercise 1 time
4. Meal Plan

Ok, I think that's enough for my first week. LOL! Don't want to overdue it and then not want to continue. That is what I seem to do a lot. I try to do too much too quick. Well, let's see how next week goes!

Starting Over

Again. :sigh: I can't complain with my weight this week. I had no gain and no loss. Considering we went camping this weekend and indulged in red vines and ice cream cake, I think I did pretty good! But I do need to get back to losing. I'm just so stressed and have so much to do, it's the last thing I want to do. KWIM? Oh well. I'll get over this hump shortly! I hope.

Book Review - Messy Tessy

Messy Tessy by Leah Orr is a cute book for girls to read. Tessy plays while the babysitter sleeps! Of course, it could also give your darling child some not so good ideas of what to do. Ha-ha. My only complaint about this book is the wording. It doesn't really flow. The author attempts to rhyme but sometimes the pentameter is off and so the rhyming is off and doesn't flow. Otherwise a very cute book. LOVE the illustrations. The pictures are a delight to see. And the proceeds from the sale of her books goes to the Cystic Fibrosis Foundation. I would be interested to read the other two books this author has written if not just for the pictures. I really did like the illustrations!

Book Review - Cracking the $$ Code

Cracking the $$ Code by Patricia M. Annino seems like it would only be for working women. I don't think. The subtitle of this book is "What successful men know and you don't (yet)". I think this book can be used by any woman whether working or not. In it, she explains certain things that men just seem inherently driven to do while we as women are not. They would seem to be things that would come naturally but being a woman and being driven by the wanting everyone to love me feelings, they don't. It's something that I need to work on. This book gives women the tools to do just that. Whether you are a working woman or a non-working woman, i think you will come away from this book learning something about yourself and learning some tactics you can do to make your life easier. This will definitely be a book that I will read over and over to refresh my memory of what I need to do in order to make my life more productive.

Book Review - Kill Me Twice

Kill Me Twice by Jerry Bayne was definitely a page turner. From the beginning, his storyline swept me in and made me want to keep reading. When someone kills the Senator and is doing it out of revenge, you want to find out why. Jerry Bayne tells you just enough to keep you interested but wanting to know more. This thriller was a great book all the way through. I definitely want to check out more books by this author!

First 5K of the Year

So I ran my first (and last???) 5K of the year. Ok, it may not be my last but it's just so annoying that I feel like I can't go and can't train because I need to take care of the kids. But that's a whole 'nother post in and of itself.

So the night before SUCKED. Taylor woke up and ended up sleeping with us in bed and Emily woke up like 3 times. Ugh. So I hardly got ANY sleep at all. Alarm went off and I so did not want to go. After about 30 mins I forced myself to get up, got dressed (didn't bother with a shower since I took one the night before) and headed out the door in like 10 mins. Got to Huntington Beach and parked almost in the same spot I parked at last time. I was about 3 blocks from the start line. =) Gotta love that. But it was 52 degrees and I was freezing. I learned my lesson the year before and since it was only 5:30 when I got there (the start time of the race was 6:50am) I sat in my car for almost an hour. It was kinda nice until I started dozing towards the end. Woops!

I went to the start line, then found the restrooms and bascially only had to wait about 40 mins until I started running the race. Considering I haven't ran since my last 5K in August of last year (YIKES that was what almost 6 months ago!) I think I did pretty good! I finshed at 38:59! Under 40 mins. Yeah!!!! My personal best record is 38:20 at my last race. Just think if I had actually trained. I would LOVE to do 10 min miles but not sure if I will accomplish that anytime soon. Once the kids get older I'm sure I can train better. Having a 4 year old and 2 2 year olds is HARD! So anyway, I'm actually very happy with my time. Until the next one!

Overall: 1541 out of 2494

Women: 911 out of 1636

F 30-34: 166 out of 266

Age/Grade: 38.15% Place: 1648

Finish: 38:59 Pace: 12:33

Tag Time: 38:59

Gun Time: 50:20

Breakfast

I just had to share my breakfast. Doesn't it look yummy???